...ah yes...

a month later and finally a new blog. treatment is going well...i am four days into my third taxol treatment, and just getting over the two really harsh, achy side effect days. that being said, i now have the neulasta bone pain days to look forward to, and then smooth sailing until the thursday after next for my fourth treatment. originally, there were to be only four taxol treatments, but since we stopped at three a/c, we are adding a fifth round of taxol so we still get 8 total chemo sessions in. the side effects that i get from the taxol are; joint pain up my spine, in my hips, and in my knees...then i have bone and muscle pain all over my head, my cheeks and my teeth...feels like i have been beaten severely about the head; for some reason, the pain killers don't work on that, but the flexeril knocked my out enough that i was able to sleep through the night....and then after about 24 hours, *poof* it is gone! the neulasta pain is less than it used to be, but still in the same places....i get the shooting pain across my hips, front and back, and then shooting pain up my spine. the oxycodone takes care of that though...i am much happier on this treatment than i was the a/c, even though i no longer have any eyelashes or scarcely any eyebrows...i have even started working out again! i have to modify what i do, and don't have near the strength or energy i used to, but it feels so good to be MOVING AROUND again...and starting to rebuild all that has wasted away.

on a positive note, i finally went shopping and got new bras and underwear that FIT...i've dropped over 2 inches around my ribcage, lost 1 1/2 cup sizes and went down a size in underwear (happy about the underwear and rib cage, not so stoked about the boobs).....

outside of that, life is still great....i am so very much in love and feel happier and more driven than ever.